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Name: Steve
Birthday: 2/8/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: Music, Cookies, Drawing, Video Games, 3 Musketeers bars, Anime, Horror Movies/Books, Movies, Writing, Legos, Computers, Google, Pissing People Off
Expertise: haha, yeah right... I'm a jack of all trades... but a master of none.
Occupation: Other
Industry: Hospitality
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AIM:  excessnoise247
Yahoo:  excessnoise247
Member Since:
12/15/2004
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| So how about those frequent updates?
As far as Nicole and myself are concerned, our relationship is going great, and getting better. However there are alot of people that are trying to come between us. And (despite those individuals not actually reading this) FYI: NOT HAPPENING. Though things are looking a little bit, I dunno... scary maybe?? I love how her dads more or less saying I'm a bad person/ influence and that I'm only interested in sex. As for the sex thin, it that were true, wouldn't I have jumped ship the second we got caught with her skipping school?
Anyways... I got most of my stereo working again. I have to go in a redo the splices in the wires though. Going to do that today hopefully. Also have to try and figure out why my fan motor isn't working. Then we have to check out my headlight that stopped working last night.
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| Operation V-day was a huge success I believe.
Giant stuffed caterpillar, 2 roses, box of truffles, and a card. mwahahaha.
The last few months brought something to my attention. I really like shopping for other people. so, Nicole... Watch out, lol.
She's probably going to be moving in with my dad sometime in the next like 2 weeks.That's going to be absolutely fucking awesome. We'll finally get to spend the time with each other that we've been wanting too. YAY! lol.
Sorry...
End rant.
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| Alot has gone down in the past few days.
I got to see Nicole for a couple minutes today. Made me happy. I dunno if it's healthy to miss people like that after only a few days. But whatever. I guess if nothing else it just kind of drives home the fact of just how much I like her.
Nicole may be moving in with my dad for a little while, which would be sooooo awesome. We'd get to see each other so much, haha.
Things with works have been going alright. Made over $50 in tips the last 2 nights, and that's always cool.
Probably going to hang out with Nicole and her mom tomorrow, which means I have to finish up her V-Day present tonight, haha. At times, I'm so devious, I hate myself, mwahahahaha. lol.
And her dad's cooling don about things fairly quickly, so after another week or so I'm supposed to try and talk to him about it. Hopefulyl things will get back to being 'normal' again here pretty soon. Can't wait until I can actually spend time with Nicole. It's going to be soooo cool, lol.
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| AHHH!!!!
I wanna cry.
Seriously.
I might not get to see nicole until like the end of March, and that thought is driving me insane. We're both working on making it so that we can see each other as much as we want, but hte possibility is still lingering dangerously overhead.
We've only been dating for a week, but I love her more and more by the day. Yes, I love her. It's well past the point of us liking each other. We have pretty much everything in common. Nearly identical tastes in musuic, anime, manga, beliefs. It's amazing. The only differences we really have are that I eat sea food and she doesn't.... and she plays DDR and I don't.
Some people may think I'm just being stupid. And to those people, I will quickly respond with "Fuck off". That simple.
We had some interesting talks today. Like how we both despise people who abuse Women children and animals. Also told her that if anybody ever hit her, let me know. I know I'm not exactly an gortesquely intimidating person, but I can most definately hold my own, especially if I actually loose my temper.
Anyways, I'm getting away from the point here.
We have to try and either smooth things over on her end, or we have to find somewhere esle that she can stay. One, or the other.
I've promised her that I'll wait for her, no matter how long it takes. And that is a promise I have every intention of keeping. I seriously could never imagine a better person to be with.
I know... one day at a time... but when those days are very spaced apart, one can't help but be upset and paniced.
I'm the happiest I've ever been. I'm in a relationship with someone who, even after just a week, I love dearly. And I'll be damned if I let anybody take that away from either of us.
As sad as it is, we're the best things going in each others lives.
She's my reason to look forward to the next day with a smile.
I gave her my class ring today. I told her to take it as a reminder of my promise to wait for her...
and I can't finish this...
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| And tonight was a VERY dangerous night.
I almost actually lost my temper.
Nicole called me earlier today, to have me pick her up at school. No problem with this. I wouldn't pass up an opportunity to see her again. And that was fun. Laid there just kind of cuddling/sleeping all morning.
Then I had to go to the dentists again. Again, not bad. Though my lip being numb really sucked.
Got back home, everything was cool. Again, Nicole and I just kind of laid around until I have to get her back to school.
And this is where things kind of started going down hill.
I dropped her off, went home.... and my mom and stpdad wanted to talk to me about her skipping school so much. A valid concern, but one Nicole and myself had discussed MUCH earlier in the day, so the discussion was quickly ended.
Then I went to Papa Johns to get my jacket, which I left there the night before. I get home... and like the second I walked through the door, "you, sit down boy"
Now they were concerned about Nicole and myself spending all day in my room alone. Again, valid concern... BUT I'M A FUCKING ADULT!!! Shouldn' I be allowed to make my own decisions, and live my own life? Am I not allowed to have my girlfriend in my room, where, should something like that arise, we would have the appropriate precautions at hand?
Oh wait. I forgot. They fucking told me that they just didn't want it in theie house.
So I guess that means my backseat is a better place for it.
Yeah... history is kind of repeating itself with nicole and myself, as my mom and dad went through an almost similar situation. That's a very small almost. Almost... yet completely different at the same time.
The I went and pibked Nicole up from her dads, and we were off...
To the most awkward and uncomfortable dinner either of us had EVER been to.
Then off to Gamestop, where we met up with Eric, Matt and Sam... we hung out with them fo a little while. Then the 2 of us were off to the mall.
And as we got about 10 steps from the car, Janet (the woman Nicole lives with... also her ex's grandma) called. She was saying that she had told her to be home at 7, when she had said to be home at 8. Plus she didn't believe that Nicoles dad picked her up from school, which he had. And apparently she was more pissed off then she had ever been before. And when she's threatened to kick Nicole out in the past we weren't really sure just how things were going to work out.
So, I took Nicole to her dads place... she explained the situation, and he more or less told her "oh well".
I took her home and am kind of afraid to see how things turned out. But I'll find out in the morning.
The I called my mom to see if it would be alright, if she were to be kicked out, it would be alright if Nicole styed here until she found a more suitable place to live.
Now most normal people would have been like "eh..we'll see" or "I guess...", right? Right.
But no. Not these people.
Their main complaint was that Nicole and I were dating. Understandable complaint. HOWEVER, just becuase I'm dating her, is no reason to make her have to stay out on the street because her 'gaurdians' are fucking retarded.
And the rest of the night pretty much was just me arguing with my mom about both the door issue, and her possibly staying with us.
So far I have lost a substantial amount of respect for both of them, though my mom did get some of it back. Now... to get it through to Todd.
The whole ordeal had me so pissed I felt like I was going to cry, and nearly did a couple of times. I also nearly lost my temper. We're talking "kill the next person I see", pissed. How anybody could even say something like that to their own son blows my mind. I mean WHAT THE FUCK?! What kind of person would let a 15yo girl go out on the street because it would make them uncomfortable?
And as far as them 'making' me keep my door open, FUCK THAT. I'm an adult, I'll do what I want. If I want to have my girlfriend over, and shut my door, I will. What I do with MY life should b MY decision. And the responsiblity for the consequences of those decisions, are MINE ALONE. Let me make my decisions and my mistakes, and juet let me live.
My mom says that her mom had no morals, and thatis why she let al 4 of her kids have their BFs/GFs over to stay the night when they were younger. And I REALLY don't thinkg that's true, for the following reasons...
1.) She probably just trusted her kids. You know... apparently that's a revolutionary concept. She trusted them... but it was they, the kids, who betrayed that trust. Lack of morals? No. that's called having kids that aren't trustworthy.
2.) She did't want to judge her kids for th actions of the others. They all get the same chances, but it's up to the individual to make their decision about it. All in all... I actually like her approach ALOT better. For the following reasons...
1.) My parents don't trust us. They say they do, but, as the above statements clearly state, that is most definately NOT the case.
2.) They judge us on what THEY did when they were our age. And while they say we are almost nothing liek they were when they were our age, they can't help but hold their actions against us. I've seen first hand the infinite knowledge that has been put into their decision making skills. I AM LIVING TESTIMONY. And I'm supposed to trust THEIR decisions? Riiight. They did an impecable job of bringing 3 kids into a VERY unstable environment, the occasional account of child abuse/ neglect, and at times, near-poverty. And who can forget my fatehrs drunken escapades in my young and latter years. Ahh... yes. These are my parents. The ever-so-adept decision makers.
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Nicole, assuming you actually read this, I just have to say this.
I'm sorry you have to go through all of this. I wish I could make it just stop. I know you've had it hard through out your life, but that was then, this is now. We'll take it a day at a time, for as long as we can. I love you, and that's all I need. I'd do everything I could to make things better for you. Even if all you need is me to be there for you. I won't ever leave you because of you family or my family. If anything were to ever break us up, it would be us. Yeah... I know, we've only been dating a week. If I ever seem to bepushy about things, I really don't mean to be. I do my best to not be like that. I'll Never lie, never sheat, never steal. I've known you for 10 days now, and I already can't imagine a better person that I'd want to be with. Whatever might be thrown at us, lets stand strong together, and fight through it.
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